During the time of transition from this life to the next, so many things are happening keeping our bodies and minds on overdrive. However, these are moments that we need to keep track of. Time moves quick and slow at the same time. You think that you will not forget, and you don’t really, but they do tend to get jumbled up. I would suggest creating a journal.
These last moments are some of the most special moments, yet they can get lost because of the calamity of the moment. We don’t think of recording these moments. Is this because we continue to view death as a taboo subject?
During the time I was with Mike in his last days, I wrote notes in a notebook. Most of the time it was the date and one line – something that seemed to stand out that day to me. Now looking back I wish I had written more each day, but I didn’t. Thinking back, I believe that I was more concerned of what other’s would think of me doing just that. I had been sucked into the death taboo belief. “I’ll be okay” that was one of several lines I had written in my notebook under the date of October 17. Sometimes it’s only one line that brings the memory to the forefront. It brings me comfort today knowing he’s okay.
“Want to go home”, one line under the date of October 22. Mike looked right at me after he said those 4 words. All I could say is “I know”. I believe these are the last words Mike actually verbalized. I’m unsure though, but I have no other comments written in my notebook. But, as I previously mentioned, I wasn’t writing like I should have. At that time, I couldn’t give him directions, I couldn’t give him
traveling recommendations and I didn’t want him to leave, not at that moment, I wasn’t ready.
Shortly afterward, realizing the depth of what he was trying to tell us, I did tell him he could go and we would be okay along with “I love you”. I reaffirmed those same thoughts throughout his remaining days. You never know when it will be their last words, so journal your conversations, no matter if it is only one word, one sentence or a whole notebook, write it down.
Would you journal each days events if it were you? Please share your thoughts and opinions, I’d love to
hear them.
Best wishes
